There I was, thinking that at last the medication was starting to work and that everything was going to get better. I hate it when I am wrong and I am tired of feeling this way. I have been doing so well the last few days, getting up with energy, tiding up my flat, going out for walks, and today, it took me so long to wake up and now that I am up, I have a headache and just want to sleep. It might be side effects of upping the dose to 20mg. Just read the leaflet, and the side effects I am having are:
· Fatigue
· Increased sweating
· Blocked or runny nose
· Restlessness
· Dry mouth
· Sexual disturbances
· Difficulty breathing
· Abdominal muscle pain
The truth is, I don’t mind the side effects if they ultimately help me with my illness. It has been a long 9 months now since I have been feeling like I want to die.
I was so hopeful, and this relapse makes me feel that the solution is nowhere near. I just want this to stop. I want to go back to my life. I want to be able to smile again without any thought of worthlessness.
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